I’ve spent too long
Memorizing the pauses in lovesongs
Looking for a man
To fill the gaps
With his presence.
A wicked emptiness
A life devoid of self
I found myself alone
I weaved a web
The wind is blowing
I’m losing time
Days slip by like pictures do the blind
I’m sick of crying
Great expectations
Make way for
Eternal lamentations
I cannot win
Again and again I give in
Til I reach my breaking point
No more people to anoint
My special victims
Human experiments
Allowing me to circumvent
That which I am to measure myself by.
The test must now apply to me
Or I can never grow joyous nor free
This road I must walk on my own
I have grown
From a girl to a woman
Who needs no man
To tell her exactly where
She stands
I’ve found my place
Among the sheep
Among the wolves
I hold my own.